All you had to do was be good to me
You just could have been good to me
I would have held it down for you
Ride or die, I was always by your side for you
I’m laying in the tub and I’m thinking of what was
What would have been waiting just outside of that door
What could have been waiting too
If only you could have been good to me
And I wish I could accept your apologies
I wish you still sent them
Because every bone in my body wants to believe that this was a mistake
That you are the one and that the timing then was just wrong
That you weren’t ready but you will be
That I wasn’t wrong and it wasn’t worth it
That you were truly the one for me
But it was too inconvenient, I was
I was demanding too much and expecting so much, I was
so needy; I needed to give you space
But how much space do you need
If I was always alone in the dark & the cold
at 2am
somewhere far away in the hidden
corner of our home
And you wouldn’t miss me
Clock struck 3,
4
5
Time just kept passing then
and you were not in the know
Mums the wiser, had no idea I wished you would notice me
It was just you and I
I thought I was all that mattered
I thought you wanted to take care of me
So get out of bed, make your way to me
Sense me, I’m not okay and I want you
to want me
Nothing else matters, I want you
to want me
No one else matters, I needed you
to want me
So years later, I’m still on my own
But no one else is here when I open the door
When I walk through the deepest and see all the darkness
and somewhere, a light lit dim
The light is mine, it was always mine to find
Because I lit it long ago when I made my final promise to you
Oh I got me. I have always gotten me. I will be fine…I will always have me.
Because you thought I needed you
And I truly did
I needed you to want to be with me
All you had to do was be good to me
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